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not just my heart
but a world-record is broken,
my heart disintegrating,
so fast and furiously,
like never before, the aorta so torn
from its moorings

at the divine feet of Avadhut,
I kneel, bow, clasp,
forgive me O Lord,
but pity not,
I revel in this coarse sack

yes, depraved, time-worn souls
can enter celestial palaces,
the mirage of nectarean space
and temple of forbidden air

‘I cannot say it enough,
I love you,
whatever ‘I’ is left
after loving you’,
at first a still passion,
then the quiver
of vulnerability

I am alone,
a disembodied voice in the half-devoured night,
in the steely, wet dawn,
‘is there a sliver of light, a shiver, a crack
in the darkness?’

heart heaving
like a mammoth sea,
encrypted