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not just my heart
but a world-record is broken,
my heart crumbled,
so fast, so furiously,
like never before, the aorta so torn
from its moorings

kneeling, bowing, clasping
the divine feet of Avadhut,
forgive me O Lord,
do not pity me,
I deserve this coarse sack

depraved, time-worn, dissolute souls
do not enter these celestial palaces,
the mirage of nectarean space,
the forbidden air,
I am alone.
all one

‘I cannot say it enough,
I love you,
whatever ‘I’ is left
after loving you’,
at first a still passion, then
a disembodied voice in the half-devoured night,
in the steely, wet dawn

is there a sliver of light, a shiver, a crack
in the darkness?

heart heaving, like never before,
like a mammoth sea, encrypted